i just had a down moment a while ago. hahaha probably it’s something hormonal, but then i found out something that really got me down (after the hormonal stuff ^^;). The thing that I’ve been waiting for this whole week, the BIG opportunity…turns out to be not for me T.T hiks43
a bit sad, but then this whole day also got me really exhausted (back and forth tainan-kaohsiung-tainan)…i then tried to wipe it off by reading a book. HAHA
silly me. check out the title :
The Sadeian Woman: An Exercise in Cultural History , by Angela Carter.
The Sadeian Woman
this book got my mood worsened up. FML. (if you’re in your lowest level of mood…DO NOT ever try to read feminist-theoretical-kind of book. book that talks about pornography in a very complex way….you will feel even more depressed^^;)
anyway, i felt drowsy…and also unwell. probably because I was tired and sad, hehehe so i decided to sleep later on. After I woke up, i was still not OK, and I don’t like this feeling.
So, i tried to find my own remedy. I watched the movie that’s in my hard disk memory. HONEY. it’s a dance movie. the actress is Jessica Alba. not so serious movie…the thing i needed the most.
And i got myself enlightened. hahaha (I know most of the times i luv to exaggerating stuff hahaha…drama queen-wannabe.) but this one is true. from the movie…i see myself (okey, i know that i don’t have that hot bod like jessica alba…but i got the skin!! hahaha *positive-with-my-life-attitude*) wanna do something positive for other people. and the thing that got me down…actually not making me do something positive for other people. actually it’s just fulfilling my ego of having acknowledgement from other people. HAHA phabs and her egocentricity.
anyway, I am feeling grateful to Allah The Mighty…because before this “thing” that got me down…Allah even already gave me things that’s beyond great. hihihihi Allah luvs me. mmmmuuuach. Alhamdulillahirobbil alamin.
