few days ago, i just experienced my first experience of feeling so poor. i was broke.
it’s not that i never experienced having no money on my pocket.. i often felt that during my undergrad years. but i was okay. cos i still have my dad. (having someone to back me up if my bank savings account goes to 3 digit. (in dollar currency..it means cents hunny ^^;) or even my auntie, someone who will feel sorry for me in an instant…and will definitely drop me some money IF i tell her i have nothing else to eat (you will pick feminine figure to beg to..because they tend to be emotionally easy to feel sorry for your misfortune ^^;)
but it was back in indonesia…when my someone-i can-beg-for-money-to was just 20 km away. but in taiwan, it’s like….hell.
shit! you try to hang on to the last piece of cents that you still have. borrowing money from your friend, that you assumed have hobbies: everything except for shopping.
and all you can think of is how you can survive for the coming days….damn, it felt frustrating!
Poor me....
what i hate of being poor at that time..it made me becoming a jerk. fyi, i have this big capability in saying sadistic words. hahaha i try to tone it down these years…by keep saying good stuff, love stuff,…funny stuff. but to experience myself having short of money…such nerves!
gosh, now i know how does my mom feel when she’s out of money. hahaha (man, it sucks!)
anyway, i said bad stuff finally…to someone who actually buzzed me to ask for information on essay assignment….hahaha bad timing my mate ^^; (je suis desolee)
ok, this blog is not that kind of blog which will give you solutions on every problem in life that you will have. it’s not a “how to” blog!
i will probably gonna suffer another breakdown due to lack of money. and probably will said sadistic, bitching stuff whenever i have this phenomena.
so….if you’re around me …and i’m being such an irritating little girl. you can bet, i’m out of money, or i’m having my PMS. 
